我想....相信。

有人说 当你用100%的心去爱一个人的时候，

而你被他/她伤透了 那么接下来的恋情，

你就会比100%更少的去爱了。

之前看到这句话的时候，

其实自己也蛮信的，

因为也一直以为自己也会是这样的一个人，

所以自己也不敢淡恋爱，

因为我真的没有那么的勇气，

去爱 然后受伤 慢慢的失望 到了绝望 想放弃了，

这些都是过去给的经历。

可是你的出现，

让我的心动摇了，

让我再次相信再次鼓起勇气，

想好好的去爱你 把一切都给你，

就算是超过所谓的100%的理论。

一天比一天还要多，

我对你的感觉 对你的爱，

也一样让我变成越来越脆弱，

害怕伤害 也害怕你离开。

其实你和我也一样吧，

越爱越脆弱，

所以你自己也不敢那么爱 那么关心 那么在意吗？

我们两个人的路，

可以一直手牵手走下去吗?

今天早上好像看见不一样的你，

为了昨天我说过的东西，

一个一个说了也做了，

此刻的自己开始慢慢的感觉得到你了，

不是因为我说的东西 而是我感觉到你的在意，

就像当初在一起的时候，

所以我真的很想......相信你，

把那段不好的事情忘了。

“十指緊扣 看似簡單 但需要多少恒心。我想我们的恒心 可以很久很久吧。”

I thought I knew, but too bad I doesn't know.

From single to double life,

After so long and I thought I knew how to love a person even better,

Yet today I realize I was wrong,

The truth is I doesn't know how to love a person,

Despite all these years being alone.

I was under depression mode,

Just feels like life is fucking idiot when everything jumbled up,

And worst knowing nothing much I can do about it,

That's even fucking disappointing..not to anyone but myself.

Those trouble happened on past till now,

And then added on stress towards my career path,

Including those frustration I had towards people and things around me,

Damn I am confirm dead.

So I am having low mood like usual,

But one thing totally different is I am having you beside me,

Yet I had allowed the emotion took every little positive energy in me,

And eventually I am hurting someone I care so much and some people around me,

With all idiotic coldness and worst, bad manner.

I wish I could make things better now,
But I don't know what I should do,

Because truly speaking I am still learning how to live from single to double,

I am totally imperfect person to have someone as good as you beside me,

The only thing I knew I am lucky enough.

I wish you were here...right here, where I can hug you and letting you know I doesn't mean so much on every little I had pour towards you. I am just being too emotional and well, I just too care when knew something that I thought we could shared at the firsthand. I am sorry, my dear. Please forgive me and let me takes my time to learn being the owner of my emotion. I just know, the now me missing you badly and hoping you are fine.