眼泪教会我们坚强。

不想掉的眼泪终于不听话了，

哭过以后 说完以后 心没那么闷着了，

是看开了吗？

我无法说完全是 但我真的比较好了，

学会了一样事情，

就是我的信任是需要有价值的，

不要把它随随便便给了任何人，

我不想再为了被背叛而再受到伤害。

 

 

我聪明了。

Sorry to myself, really sorry.

Recently been feeding myself with foods nonstop. After that day, I really trying my best to get rid of the feeling. Why am I feeling so hurt? These days I threw up all those motivation quotes in my mind, let my mind fill up with many stuff, busying in the office and pushing aside those thoughts about you and yeah...... I guess I failed to. I been really stressing up for unable to get rid of that feeling and in the same time, I realize I am losing my self challenging in me. I become unproductive at all and is been maintain for that long. My life seem so blurry, miserable and worst without direction.

I need find back myself but how? Which direction I shall go? Could I still able to face you? I know no one can help me find the answer except for myself. Please Jonna How Sui Ling, could you please bloody wake up?! (sighs......)

Because...

 

I just want to stay busy and occupy all my times with things.

 

And if possible, I do not feel like talking.

 

After all I am just tired.

你真的走了....我 一点都不难过。

 

原来一直以为可以很潇洒的离开 却发现心真的真的很痛。我真的很笨 因为我还是很想你！

Give up.

 

Came to realize not every effort you put will ever care by others as well,

 

Just like trying to maintain friendship,

 

One person putting effort and another one keep moving backward,

 

Such a pointless action isn't it?

 

Perhaps I am selfish and I admit I am,

 

I still caring you like a friend and that's why I am doing what I can to save our friendship.

 

But if that giving you some heartache, or even uncomfortable,

 

No worries I would stop doing so because I respect what you want.

 

 

P.s: If you appreciate enough our friendship, if you still remember your promise..which I guess everything had changed. Thanks for those memories. Ain't hard to forget me, isn't it? Then I choose to leave your world as how you want.

人都是矛盾。

因为我也是，
都在喜欢和不喜欢中间徘徊。

有人说 “喜欢是粉红色，而爱是紫色.”
那么我对你的感觉是那种颜色呢？

最近的你都是那么陌生，
还是我自己根本不懂你是怎样的一个人，
很想更了解你 可是又觉得不应该，
因为我真的怕在靠近你，
我就会离不开。

我懂你，
习惯我陪你聊天，
习惯我分享故事，
也习惯我说早安晚安，
可是这种习惯能维持多久呢？

我们的友情会不会超过了，
还是我们不应该再那么靠近了，
每次我做了决定，
你都好像预知得到，
然后关心说了一些弄到我开心的话。

现在的我又是不懂怎么做了，
我很想减少我们之间的话题，
也很想不要时常都回复你的信息，
可是心里还是那么执着那么不舍得。

我都是一个自找麻烦的人。

 

"Give up, just give up will ya?"