Half year had gone so fast and I guess I am still wonder, wondering and so on. Like usual, month of June not welcome by me so much because I knew those memories will be back and haunt me. But honestly, this year ain't as painful as what I went through before and surprisingly I get rid it by doing nothing (like every year, I used to do hangout or doing something else). What does that mean? Am letting go? Or any explanation for that? Well, I just know I been stubborn to loose my wrist on those memories for all these years and stopping myself to believe that those beautiful memories will never awaken again.
Pathetic of me, I guess. For not loving so much all this while. Well, and so I decided to CHANGE. I am still myself, but am changing my perspective towards life and people around me. Maybe, maybe...is not too late to define who I want myself to be again and again. But for important, I am loving myself even more. Peace.
I told myself not to be afraid of change. Because if I do, I will still standing in the same spot where I don't know even where to move on. And foremost, I am still learning. Learning to be better me, not for anyone but for myself. So, am so welcoming July and the rest of the month will smile and laughter. That's my life's motivation - SMILE.
"Rather to let people seeing my smile and laughter, then letting them realizing tears are once there."
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